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Saturday, April 19, 2014

04.20 Music & Love




Hello my faithful two readers.  It's great to have join me again for rantings and ramblings from yours truly.  I know seem to jump all over the place with my blog and I guess that is because I have a lot to say about many things that interest me.  I like movies, celebrities, men, music, television, travel, and so on.  This week I want to focus on music and my endless desire to find close intimate love.  Open a bottle of Merlot, pour yourself a glass (or three) and let's begin.


I am the type of guy that can fall in love very easily.  I trust people sometimes too quick.  I give them my heart because of a gut feeling I have.  Most of the time I do not regret it.  However, every now and then I do or I don't trust my gut and either give it to the wrong person or don't give it at all and miss the opportunity.

I also suffer from a very small confidence level.  I hate rejection and because I can't handle it I end up rejecting myself without giving the other person a chance to accept me.  I guess this is defense mechanism, but it really only succeeds in making sure I will be alone and single.

I know a lot of people are like what is wrong with being single.  I guess there is nothing wrong with it.  I'm just tired of coming home to an empty apartment.  I wish someone was here to have dinner together, to lie in bed a watch a scary movie together or just talk.  Which leads to me to my first song of the blog?

All By Myself - Celine Dion



I have fallen in love many times.  I really only had one relationship that ever flourished into anything of some value.  His name was Kenny and I met him Florida.  It was the first time in my life that I had ever seen someone and fell in love in a glance.  It was very odd for me because I had had crushes on classmates and friends and the occasional tryst, but I had never felt my heart stop as it did when I first met him.

He was this rocker looking guy from Brooklyn.  He was a definite bad boy.  He had a horrible childhood and parents.  He had a horrible misunderstood life with a mean ex-wife, ungrateful kids, prison history, medical issues and recovering drug addict.  Everything he was was everything I wasn't.  He needed love and tenderness.  I thought I could give it to him.

I found out after close to seven years that apparently he didn't want any of that from me.  He left me for red headed stripper he met on the Internet.  I was devastated.  I was embarrassed.  I was starting to make a big deal with my family that this was my life partner and he should be welcomed to family events and then he ups and leaves me for Candy Dandy the Stripper.  Almost the exact time the next song came out and it was my mantra.

Strong Enough - Cher

After Kenny, I went quite a while without having anyone really too mention.  I was in and out of love/lust.  Things could have progressed with several men but because of my baggage or their baggage it did not happen.  However two men come to mind that got away for different reasons.  They were both friends and at one time I knew them when they were single, but they both found partners.  I could either become the other person or not.  I choose not to do disrespect myself or them by walking or attempting to walk that path.

One was another rocker with long hair, smooth skin and a beautiful smile which I will call Jake.  The other was a fun, friendly, masculine guy named Wayne.  Both names of course are made up.  Wayne was my best friend and Jake was an occasional lover.  I wanted more from both of them, but they are either were unable or unwilling to give me the love I so desired.

Even though it hurt, I guess it was best that neither of them gave what I needed, because if they had my life would be different.  Would I have continued to the job and career I currently have?  Would I be living in Costa Rica and traveling Central America?  However, I still think if them fondly which brings me to my next song.

I Hate Myself For Loving You

I've moved to Costa Rica in July of this year.  I have been currently on this attempt to change my life.  I'm losing weight for health reasons.  I'm traveling because I've always wanted to do it.  I've changed my outlook at life and seriously have been happier than I ever have been before.  I want to share this with someone.  I decided to seriously search and look for a partner.  My thinking was maybe the men from the U.S. were my problem.

I signed up with six different dating applications and posted my profile.  I got a ton of replies at first and I thought I had really hit the mother load.  I met a few of them and quickly realized they were no different then the losers I had encountered in the U.S.  They were either young and looking for someone to pay their way through life or they were just really odd and into to things I wouldn't have my worst enemy do or they were just interested in sex and nothing more.

I am currently trying to get to know three different guys.  Will some of them read this blog?  Yes, they probably will.  I'm not that concerned because we have never had a discussion about being exclusive and I barely see any of them.  They are all younger than I am which is a bonus for me in my forties.  It strengthens my confidence and strokes my ego. See gay men and straight men think the same way.  We get middle aged and we want someone younger.

Two are very much younger and their names are Andrew and Owen.  Andrew is very immature but shares similar interests with me.  However, he is very much in the closet and his family is very religious.  I feel sorry for him because he has to hide himself and I know how that is and I enjoy being around him because we have fun.  The other young one is more mature but shares almost no interests me and loves to push my
buttons.  I enjoy going places with him because for the most part he enjoys being a tourist with me.  However, oddly enough neither young man shows passion in a relationship with me.  It is more like friends. Which leads us to our next song.

Whenever I Call You Friend - Kenny Loggins & Stevie Nicks

The last guy (Jonathan), I recently met and it was almost perfect.  He was closer to my age but still younger. We had similar interest and he wanted a relationship.  He was also passionate about being with me and getting to know me. We talked over the phone and text several times.  We finally met and I fell in love.  I tried not to fall in love.  I really tried to harness my emotions.  However, he was Cancer and I am Scorpio.  I had no choice but fall hopelessly in love.  I was either like a middle school girl or a lesbian because I was ready to pick out china patterns.

We've chatted since that time, but have not seen each other since.  I held off on texting him too early after our first official date, because I didn't want to seem to desperate.  It took him a day to respond.  I stated I wanted to see him again and have gotten no response.  I don't know what happened.  Maybe I am reading too much into it.  Maybe I am trying to move to fast.  Maybe I misread the signals.  Maybe he was just telling me what I wanted to hear.  The horrible thing about Jonathan is that he is the most passionate made I have met here in Costa Rica.  He made me feel wanted, needed, appreciated and desired.  Something no one else has accomplished yet.  Even though I want it to continue, I must face reality that it probably won't continue with him and if it does, I'm not sure it will be the eventual marriage that I am looking to have. This leads me to my two favorite songs at the moment.

Say Something

Stay With Me - Sam Smith

There's the look into my life and what I am thinking about tonight.  Am I destined to be alone with just one night stands in my future?  Can I build a life with someone who shows no passion?  Do I run them off?  Am I too picky?  What am I doing wrong?  The good thing about being a Scorpio is that we love to analyze ourselves and the people in our life.  The bad thing about being a Scorpio is that we tend to over analyze to the point where we stunt our relationships or growth.  Oh well, no matter the outcome of my soul searching.  I will continue to search for the guy to share all the wonders and adventures that are in my future.


Alright gang until next time.  May your bartender be hot and heavy handed when pouring your drink.


Saturday, April 12, 2014

04.12

Wine is constant proof that God loves us and loves to see us happy.


Hello my dear readers.  This week has brought things to my attention.  A fond farewell, a replacement, a new show I came across and a little personal observation/story are the focus of this weeks blog.  Get your drink and lets start this thing.






A month or so ago, I was relieved to finally get Jay Leno off my television show.  I have never been a Jay Leno fan at all.  I found him boring, unfunny and a jerk.  I was however disgusted to hear his replacement would be the equally boring and overrated Jimmy Fallon.  I would continue to watch the Late Show with David Letterman because the Tonight Show was proven to be irrelevant to me.

Imagine my shock when David Letterman said he was going to retire.  My world went in a tizzy.  I wondered who would replace this icon.  Who could possibly helm the Late Show?  Would they continue with items that I loved like Stupid Pet Tricks, Stupid Human Tricks and the Top Ten List?  Would they be funny or would it be another horrible switch like Carson to Leno to Fallon?

It was revealed this week that none other than Stephen Colbert would be taking over the helm of this show.  I can't tell you how relieved I was to hear that this would be the new lead of the Late Show.  He's talented, charming, funny and current.  He will definitely take the Late Show far and beyond the Tonight Show.  I applaud CBS at this hiring.  It is amazing.



 Mickey Rooney 



When you think of classic movie stars, many names come to mind like Mary Pickford, Elizabeth Taylor, Cary Grant, Douglas Fairbanks, Jimmy Stewart, and so on and so forth.  One of the greatest actors was Mickey Rooney.  He starred in amazing films from A Midsummer Night's Dream at 13 to Boys Town opposite Spencer Tracy to Babes in Arms with Judy Garland which he was nominated for Best Actor Oscar to The Black Stallion in 1979 to Night at the Museum with Ben Stiller.  

He wasn't only in great on the screen and stage, but by today's fame whore television standards, he could have had his own reality television program.  He was married eight times and had nine children.  He struggled with alcohol and pills.  He served the military during World War II for two years.  When he returned, he had to file bankruptcy and money trouble and abuse from loved ones allegedly followed him to his last days.

However, I will always remember him as this 5'2" ball of fire that lit up every screen or stage with his performances.  He was brilliant, engaging and energetic in all things he was in.  If you haven't had the chance to see his work, I would recommend seeing any of the below.  


Rest in Peace Puck.


       If we shadows have offended,
    Think but this, and all is mended,
     That you have but slumber'd here
   While these visions did appear.
  And this weak and idle theme,
  No more yielding but a dream, 
 Gentles, do not reprehend:
    if you pardon, we will mend:
    And, as I am an honest Puck, 
   If we have unearned luck
        Now to 'scape the serpent's tongue,
    We will make amends ere long;
 Else the Puck a liar call; 
   So, good night unto you all.
         Give me your hands, if we be friends,
        And Robin shall restore amends.





How about something personal?  I have always wanted to live, work and play in the business of entertainment. I just have never had the discipline or confidence to pursue it. I always wanted to be the lead actor, but most lead actors are a little more fit than I am.  

I was raised in a family that appreciated the performing arts.  My mother has always been a fan of film and television.  She also performed from time to time on stage at community theater productions.  Along with her enjoyment of the stage, she has a knack for drawing and painting.  She's always been very creative and has always encouraged creativity in my siblings and myself.

My twin older brothers have been in some kind of production or creative process for as long as I can remember.  They were both in their high school marching band, high school choir and high school performances.  They went on to college where they continued their theatrical performances, which they may think I was dragged to see these things and, as a spoiled young brat, I may not have show in it, but I really enjoyed it.  One brother went on to be one of the best forensics and debate teacher and the other went on be on of the most creative teacher and directors of High School theatrical productions.

I was raised watching every awards show. I was introduced to documentaries and independent films at a young age.  I was taught how to appreciate all types of music from classical to disco to country to pop and so on.  I was taught to see the beauty in the Nutcracker Suite and Xanadu, which isn't easy.  

With all of this, you may ask why am I not in LA writing the crap we see on television today and in films.  The answer is that I always let other things get in the way of this dream and I never really felt I needed to pursue it.  My mother has always told me that I should be a screen writer because of the imagination I had.  Now that I am getting older, I realize that my mother has been correct on so many levels and I think she was correct with this advice as well.  In fact, my urge to write has been stronger than ever, which is why I blog the ramblings that you read.

Why did my mother think I should write?  I had a very overactive imagination as a child.  I told I think it was my babysitter that my parents were getting divorced several years before they did.  I told someone that my mother had broken both her legs while pregnant and in a flood.  I remember playing with my friends and pretending we were characters from our favorite movies and television shows.  I wrote a silly murder mystery play in Agatha Christie style for a fifth grade writing project where the killer was a mute young man that was being bullied called "Writer's Block".  I also wrote a soap opera to get noticed at my new school when I was thirteen/fourteen and I listed my fellow students as characters like they were actors in a program so they wouldn't think it was about them personally.

My imagination and writing has progressed.  I just need to build my confidence.  I hate to have people read scripts I write because I am never happy with any of them.  I always think I can do better so I never let anyone see them.  However, I am getting to the point where I want someone to look at them and, of course, tell me it is awesome.  Take a drink with me and toast to building confidence.   "Clink"





As I have mentioned many times, my viewing options in Costa Rica are very limited.  I have watched the Irina season of Project Runway three times since I have been here.  I can't see NBC.  The majority of pay channels are in Spanish.  I have a Warner Brothers channel that air reruns of Big Bang Theory, Mom, Two and a Half Men and other shows.  I have a Sony Channel that shows the Voice and Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D.  I also have a channel called AXN which shows Criminal Minds, CSI, CSI:Miami, CSI:New York and Hannibal.  I also have the E Channel.

The E Channel has become my guilty pleasure.  I really enjoy the Fashion Police and Guiliana Rancic on E News.  They also show reruns of Project Runway and Tabitha Takes Over which I like.  However, because there is nothing else on, I get sucked into the Kardashians and other vapid shows that E air.

The latest of these valueless shows is #Rich Kids of Beverly Hills.  These spoiled rotten little young men and women have no talent.  They think they are better than everyone else and like to rub our faces in it.  They are not humble.  They don't care about anyone but themselves.  They blow through money that is not theirs and they act like everything should handed to them and everyone should wait on them hand and foot.  They have little to no redeeming qualities. Every single one of them are a disgrace.  Anyone who likes this show are just a shallow, insipid and vapid as the people on this show.

I don't know why we have to celebrate this kind of behavior by giving them their own show.  E needs to stop taking advice from Ryan Seacrest, the anti-christ., and get some good entertainment shows on their network instead of guilty pleasures like Ryan Seacrest produced shows or horrible things like this Rich Kids of Beverly Hills.  

While we are on the subject, can someone please send Ryan Seacrest back to the fiery pit he came from so he can stop giving us crap like this on television?  Is he trying to bombard us with talentless and worthless individuals so we can forget that he is the King of no talent?  He gave us the Kardashians, Married to Jonas and Shah's of Sunset.  With that kind of resume, you can't convince me that he doesn't have a hand in this #RKOBH show.  It smells like a bag of fiery poo just like all of the other shows he produces.



I drank two full glasses of wine after that rant.  

Almost at the end of the journey, we need to end on something fun.  How about a pic from each of the soon to be released marvel pics and one of Falcon from Captain America: Winter Soldier?  I can't wait for each of them.  








Until next time, may all your drinks be top shelf and stiff.

Sunday, April 6, 2014

My Daredevil Reboot



I'm watching Daredevil with Ben Affleck and have decided it is time reboot the franchise.  I think the massive problem with the movie was the script and Maybe Ben shouldn't act with his real life partner.  I know most people blame Ben Affleck, but really it was the script mainly.  

We can't have Ben Affleck back because of the stigma most people have with him and action movies.  Unfortunately, Michael Clarke Duncan can't reprise his role of the Kingpin.  We would need a new cast.  Here are my picks.

First we need someone to play Matt Murdock/Daredevil.  I have two possible choices of young actors that could play the role of the blind lawyer from Hell's Kitchen.


My first pick would be Kellan Lutz. He's best known for his role in the Twilight Saga and more recently the Legend of Hercules.  He has the physique and looks for a great Daredevil.  What about the talent?  His resume doesn't scream box office smash.


My second pick is Tom Felton. He may not have the physique.  He does have the talent and thanks to his role Draco Malfoy, he does have a loyal following. Would he be believable?


My one and only pick for Elektra is Chloe Moretz.  She is a very talented young actress and could do the role quite well.  However, I would bring her in the 2nd film of the franchise.  


For the first film, I would use Emma Watson to play Karen Page, arguably Daredevil's best girlfriend.  Emma has a strong following like Tom Felton and has a strong film resume with The Perks of Being a Wallflower and Noah.



Every hero needs a sidekick and Matt Murdock has Foggy Nelson.  My pick for this May surprise some but I pick Shad Gregory Moss a.k.a Lil Bow a Wow.  He's a pretty good actor.  He did well in Tyler Perry's Big Happy Family.  He does have a following because of his music.

Now for the villains, who should be in the 1st film.  Who should play them?  How do you replace Michael Clark Duncan as the Kingpin.  What about Bullseye?



How about Morris Chestnut as the Kingpin?  He has a menacing look about him.  He's tall and built.  He has an impressive film career.  He also has a large female fan base.


I pick Nicholas Hoult as Bullseye, the deranged assassin.  He has a lot of talent  and I believe can play the psychopath quite well.



What about Kingpin's henchman, Tombstone? Taylor Kitsch would be perfect.  His got a great physique and even though John Carter failed miserably,  I think he can pull this role off.


  Batman had Catwoman.  Daredevil has a femme fatale as well named Typhoid Mary.  My pick would be Isla Fisher.  She's a great actress that could do this complicated character justice.


While I'm at it, what Chadwick Bossman as the Black Panther?  It is high time that Black Panther should come to the screen.  Chadwick Bossman would be perfect.  


Well there you have it.  That is kind of my cast for a Daredevil reboot.  Who would you pick?

Until next time, may all your drinks be top shelf and well mixed.

Friday, April 4, 2014

Just can't help myself

I want to talk about my guilty pleasure "reality" television.  First we need  a definition of reality television.  Second we need to set some ground rules.

"Reality" television is not reality.  If reality was truly entertaining, we wouldn't need television or movie because we live in reality.  At least most of us do.  Lets get real Tom C (I don't want to get sued) and little lesbian gone astray, Justin Beiber do not live reality.  

"Reality" television is scripted reality.  The only close to real reality show ever filmed was Real World Season 1 and even that I'm sure was a little scripted.

There are also two different types of reality television.  First is competition reality which include at the high end Rhe Voice and Amazing Race and at the low end would be The Bachelor and Bachelorette.

The second type is what I can fame whore reality television. This would include Keeping Up with the Kardashians (see what releasing a sex tape could do for you as well), any program on MTV and any show on E.

So I was watching Talk Soup because it's funny and I can, but I digress.  Back to the show, they showcased a vampire cult so to speak.  The show taught me a few things about our nocturnal brethren. 

1) they don't feed directly from humans so they are pansy vampires.  They it's have been the muse for Twilight, which would explain Kristen Stewarts bad acting because the sucked the life pit of her.

2) The vampire cult have meetings and they take notes of the meetings, discuss  agendas and so on and so forth. Who didn't know the prince of darkness was so organized?  

3) The most shocking thing I learned is that they don't bite and the leader a pretentious prick named Logan gets really upset and throws a fit in the form of a melodramatic soliloquy when someone playfully bites him at a nightclub.

All of this made me rethink my stance on the Twilight Saga.  Maybe Bella and gang aren't the most pathetic vampire bunch.  At least the Twilight twits could bite.

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My favorite type of "reality" show is competition reality.  I love that there is a prize to explain why these people are acting like fools.  I hate to believe that a majority of mankind are all insipid self-absorbed morons.

My fave of these is Survivor despite Jeff Probst condescending tone he uses to encourage and berate the players.  The show usually puts a pretty decent cast together even though I have applied three times and have never been chosen, but I digress again. The players for the most part are entertaining and the challenges are fun to watch.  

The part I really love is too watch these people implode or explode.  It really shows their poor sportsmanship or strategy.  It exposes these people in ways they didn't expect the viewers to see.

This season or cycle, however you want to call it, has already exposed some players behavior in not so nice light and has made me smh and lol.  Of course you have your favorites and you get upset (like you get a piece of the prize) if something happens to them or someone else's mistake affects them. However these implosions or explosions then become kind of unwritten rules of the game.

Rule Number 1 - Just because someone tells you that you are going to be voted out doesn't mean that is true so don't act like a fool. For instance, J'Tia, a nuclear engineer (which worries me), was told she was next to be voted out.  This obviously didn't sit well with her and she decided to retaliate.  So like a three year old, she destroyed about 75% of their food supply. However it backfired on her because they didn't vote her off and she had to suffer without any food, but she didn't last much longer because her tribe couldn't forget her actions.

Rule Number 2 - You will not earn any respect, fans or favor if you don't want to play the game.  Two examples of this have already happened this season. The first was very early.  Garrett, a pro poker player (which I used to think they had to be smart), decided to put his foot down and have an open discussion about the upcoming tribal vote instead of going off in groups and being sneaky, in other words PLAY THE GAME.  He's the one that told J'Tia she was being voted off.  His lack of desire to play the game is what made two of his "alliance" turn on him and voted him out.

The second example came from Lindsey who decided to leave the game.  She didn't get voted out.  She correctly thought she would be next but instead of strategizing and finding away for her to stay, she gave up and quit.  Her pal and ally, Cliff, was voted out and after tribal council (I know that sounds silly), she decided to throw a hissy fit and trade barbs with another player.  She suddenly felt uncomfortable and in a melodramatic way decided to quit.  This only angers viewers and especially ones who auditioned. 

Rule Number 3 - Just because you seem to have power, don't act like you have power.  So there is this jerk bullying cop, who plays a decent game, named Tony.  I don't like him because he's a loud obnoxious prick in every sense of those three words.  He formed an alliance with another cop named Sarah.  The tribes had a switch which separated Sarah from Tony and the rest of her original tribe.  Tony's tribe had to suffer through the Cliff & Lindsey saga described up above.  Tony's tribe had to go to a challenge with two people short but they won the challenge.  However at the end of the challenge,  Tony is yelling "Top Five Baby" which announced to Sarah that she had been replaced.

In Sarah's new tribe,  she had three from one tribe and three from another tribe and then her.  She was the deciding vote which she handled very nicely.  It was when they merged with Tony's tribe that Sarah found herself in trouble.  

Tony wanted solid commitment from Sarah that she would vote with their tribe.  Sarah couldn't give it and wouldn't swear on her badge.  Are you kidding me?  Lying is a part of this game sometimes you have to lie and is someone going to take away your child, spouse, career or badge if you swear on it but don't mean it.  Grow up but again I digress.  

Sarah then turns around and tries to force her tribe to vote how she wants to vote instead of getting a majority idea of who to vote out.  She really told them that if you don't vote how I want to vote then I should just flip.  She thought she was untouchable because she thought she was the deciding vote and had power.  

Sarah's actions upset Kass, Chaos Kass that is.  I love it when these fools give themselves or others these stupid nicknames, but yet again, I digress. Kass decided to flip when Tony's tribe realized that Sarah was the leader and were going to vote for her.  

Sarah sealed her own fate. All she had to do was lie to Tony, vote they way her tribe wanted to vote and keep her mouth shut.  The other tribe would have bamboozled this leads me to Rule Number 4.

Rule Number 4 - Don't be an idiot with your hidden immunity idol. The above tribal council was so up in the air that no one not even the viewers knew what was going to happen which made it fun to watch.  We knew Sarah's tribe was voting for Tony and Tony's tribe was voting for Sarah.  Tony was going to play his hidden immunity idol which meant all votes for him or whoever he let use it would not count and we knew Kass was uncomfortable with Sarah.

Tony played his immunity idol to cover LJ, who Tony thought the other group was going to vote out.  LJ turned around and used his immunity idol to cover Tony.  Now Sarah was pushing her group to vote for Tony and Kass was pushing to vote out either Trish or Jeffra.  So going into tribal council, we were led to believe that they were voting for Tony and by LJ playing his idol to cover Tony sent a message to the viewers that Sarah was leaving.  

Jeff has he always does reads the votes in a very dramatic and meticulous way.  He should have this down pat after 28 seasons.  The first vote is for Sarah.  The second vote is for Jeffra?!?!?!  Sarah's group decided to vote for Jeffra and by doing that they got rid of two hidden immunity idols and now Jeffra, a very lackluster player might leave.  But wait Chaos Kass strikes by voting out Sarah.

Both immunity idols were foolishly played.  Tony was showing honor I guess by covering LJ.  LJ was reciprocating the love by covering Tony.  Neither one of them were in danger because neither one of them tried to infiltrate the group and learn who they were thinking about voting out.  You would think that someone with an idol would try a little espionage in their game to ascertain info to see if they need to use their idol or not.


There are my ramblings.  I hope you enjoyed.  Until next time, make sure your drinks are tall and stiff.


Wednesday, April 2, 2014

Midweek Blog????

How about some quotes?



"I never said it would be easy, I only said it would be worth it."

Mae West

Action speaks louder than words but not nearly as often.

Mark Twain


Any girl can be glamorous. All you have to do is stand still and look stupid.Hedy Lamarr


“Some cause happiness wherever they go; others whenever they go."

Oscar Wilde

"Honey, tact for people who aren't witty enough for sarcasm."

Karen Walker Will & Grace


I just want to wrap this up with a big applause to CNN for getting rid of Piers Morgan.  It was a long time coming and I'm so happy that we can breath again.

He was a horrible interviewer.  He just likes the sound of his own voice.  He only wants people to agree with him and he becomes a bully when they don't. He's simply a jerk. You know he's bad when a liberal like me doesn't like him.

He has about as just as much redeeming qualities as a host as Kim Kardashian has talent. He's about as relevant as Charo on the Love Boat. A better interviewer would be Beaker from the Muppets.

Goodbye Piers Morgan.  You will not be missed.